The semifinalist list for Operation First Novel 2013, a writing contest sponsored by The Christian Writers Guild, came out this week. I was not on the list.
After the hot flush of disappointment and disbelief subsided, (I wanted it so badly!), my next thought was, “OK, Lord, now what?”
It’s no good pouting—that’s not going to get my novel published—so I might as well learn from this experience and move on.
I’m galvanized to action. There are agents to query, another Christian writers organization to join, another contest to enter. More revisions.
This rejection comes at just the time when my Facebook page has taken a turn that’s amazed me. Like Henry Blackaby says, “Look what God is doing and join Him.” There are women joining who live in “closed countries.” That’s thrilling!
So is this contest rejection a defeat?
It’s a devotional.
From the beginning I’ve said, if God is in this writing endeavor, it will be what He wants it to be. But that also means I have to learn the lessons He sets before me and not mess it up. He can, after all, find other vessels to use.
Two scriptures light my path right now, both given to me by friends.
May He grant you according to your heart’s desire,
And fulfill all your purpose. Psalm 20:4
A bruised reed he will not break… Isaiah 42:3
Oh, I cling to the idea of being granted my heart’s desire, but I know that doesn’t mean getting what I want. The more I align my heart’s desire with His heart’s desire, the closer I’ll come to fulfilling my purpose for Him.
And this bruise to my ego and my desires is really nothing in the scheme of things. The Isaiah verse was poured like balm over me by a family friend who prayed my family through the deepest of deep hurts. The Lord will not break me. Or you.
Would you like to share scripture verses that have encouraged you when you stood on the cliff of disappointment?